One of my favorites...

Psalm 139

Oh Lord, you have searched me and you know me.
You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.
You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with my ways.
Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely ,oh Lord.

You hem me in - behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is to wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?
If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
If I make my bed in the depths, you are there.
If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,
even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"
even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mothers womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

How precious to me are your thoughts, O God.
How vast is the sum of them!
Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake, I am still with you.

If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.
Do I not hate those who hate you, O Lord,
and abhor those who rise against you?
I have nothing but hatred for them, I count them my enemies.

Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.
See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

Its been a strange day. It really was a good day, but then I got home and just felt, hmmm, down I guess. Thats not the word I am really reaching for, but I can't come up with anything better. A long week of new things, and I'm just tired I suppose.

I spoke with Paul last night. It was of course via pay-phone on his end, and the connection was terrible. But our connection wasn't - it was so GOOD to hear his voice! He can have regular visits now - he's been sober for more than 30 days!! So, Sunday's are going to be "family" days for us again! :)
I am not being unrealistic - I know we have a long road ahead, that may not always be pleasant. I just want to take joy in the small stuff. We haven't done that in a long time.  And with God hemming us in, we can do that gladly. He'll take care of the rest.

Enough for today I think.